So I started Weight Watchers again. It was a bit of an eye opener for me to get back on the scale after having 9 months pass. When I saw the results, I almost teared up. Suffice it to say, the fact that I can still fit (snugly) in size 32 jeans is a defiance of physics. But after hearing everyone's stories, listening to the corny and perky leader of the group, and focusing on how I felt the last time I was on it, I'm confident I'll be able to go back down. It's gonna take a while. This ain't an overnight fix, nor is it a diet. It's a lifelong commitment. I didn't gain as much as i could have thanks to the tricks and techniques I learned in WW. I just need to fully implement them once more into my eating styles, and go from there.
My tummy is a rumblin'. 

I went through some old LJ entries recently and noticed that I never mentioned Rick, nor any of the guys that I've gone out with the past few months. This surprised me because I went out with a few of these boys for a while, long enough to warrant an entry at least. I guess I've just fallen behind in my updates. whiskerfish  also mentioned that I tend to blog about the bad things way more than the good things. I aim to rectify that. I've gone out with more guys this year than I have...pretty much ever.  The move to the city has done wonders for my social life, as well as the quality of my life, and that's something I should've talked about and focused more on, rather than the heart ache. I haven't actually gotten into boyfriend mode with these guys, but I did get very close with a few of them. Or, I've just developed major crushes on them. Let's take a walk down memory lane, shall we, and have a quick peek at the boys of the past year. 

( The loves of Darkshifter....or some such fiddle faddle )

So there ya have it. Being in the city has certainly increased the number of dates I go on. This may not seem like a lot, but just browse through my previous entries. Living in Marin County, I barely went out on dates, let alone with so many at the same time. I haven't been in a relationship in a while, and I miss it. But while I'm waiting for Mr. Right, I shall continue to have fun, be safe, and thank the gods above that I am now, truley, a San Franciscan. Wheee! 

So I'll get to the oh so amazing details of my apartment and how the move went las weekend....later. Right now, I wanna chat about the conversation I had with the boy last night. Said boy is Box Boy (as some of my friends lovingly refer to him). He came over late last night and we had a drink at the local bar, just chatting about this and that. Since the move on Sunday, i had been wanting to talk to him about us. He met my friends and all my friends were into him. It's been a while since I've dated someone that a) I dated long enough to introduce to my friends and b) that my friends actually liked. On Sunday I realized I was really starting to like him, so I kinda wanted to see where he was at. But I wasn't quite sure how to bring it up. I'm not exactly an expert at talking about my feelings, let alone talking about relationships and what not. He noticed something was bugging me, and he guessed correctly when he asked out right, "So....what do you look for in a relationship?"
And we got to talking, headed back to my apartment. And decided that this wasn't going to work out.
Le Sigh.
We both admitted that we really liked each other. I admitted that I could see myself falling for him in the future. He admitted that we've been going out longer than he has with previous boys, at least in a long time. But, we're both looking for different things. Not surprisingly, of course. We both went in knowing what the other was like, but we figured why not give it a shot. But after talking with him about it, about what we want and where we want to head, we decided that we're just not compatible that way. He wants to explore his poly-side. I realized without a doubt that I'm a monogamous kinda dude.
Duh.
So yeah. It sucked. But it's better this way, nipping it in the bud before it could develop into something more. I really liked him. He was so unlike any guy I previously dated. He was an interesting, unique individual who lived a life that is vastly different than mine, and that intrigued me to no end. Now that I know where we stand, I'm hoping we'll remain friends. Lord knows I could use a friend who knows his way around a tool box, heh.